Monday, November 26, 2012

Hi london

I am in London at the moment.
One of my favorite city in the world.
It was raining and cold.
The perfect weather for my rain coats and the rain boots.
I spent a few hours in Harrods; enjoying myself looking at bags, shoes, cosmetics, perfumes etc etc etc.

Btw Thank you Harrods for another 150 pounds voucher from you.
Harrods is always the best, best and bestest!!! How I love shopping in Harrods.

Its a good good day for me.

I thought I shouldn't spend unnecessarily so I took a bus home.
I didn't know my oyster card didn't have enough credit for that one way bus fare.
I was about to walk out of the bus when the bus driver asked me to get in.
I offered one piece of 20 pounds note to him earlier but he didn't have the change.
Really...A small kindness in the wonderland made me smile.
Thank you Mr.Driver.
You just gave me another reason to spend more days in London =D

Christmas is just around the corner.
I start to think whats the perfect christmas looks like.
I was in New York for christmas last year; It was nice and great time spent with sandy.
I hope this christmas is gonna be another great christmas.
Doesn't matter where its always a good time when it comes to christmas day.

Talking about the UK X-Factor I was so disappointed with those people who brought Ella down.
I was expecting she is gonna be second to Jahmene.
But she's gone too fast!!!
I'll support you always, Ella Henderson.
You will shine like a star and your music will not end here even if you are not in the x-factor anymore.
GO GO GO JAHMENE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Holidays people...
I hope this december is going to bring hope, love and joy to each one of you.

Friday, November 9, 2012

My Dad My Love My Hero

It happened on the 9th of October 2012.
I was awaken by the vibration of my handphone.
I always put my phone on the silent mode simply because I am a light sleeper.
That day was the day that changed my life forever.

I saw more than 20 miscalled on the phone and countless messages appeared on the screen.
My heart jumped and I sensed something wrong.
Deep inside my heart was filled with huge fear and anxiety.
I knew that it has to be something to do with dad.
I am very sensitive when it comes to daddy.
I remember 7 years ago, I cried uncontrollably when I got to know that daddy has got blockage on his heart veins.
The doctor suggested him not to over work physically and mentally stable.
Meaning to say, he should not carry heavy things or get emotionally upset all the times.

My dad has always been a hero, a living inspiration to me.
He was strong like a hulk and tall like a warrior.
I could not afford to see this health deteriorate.
I just won't buy the idea that he could fall sick and getting old.

Back to the 9th of October 2012, I saw messages mentioning that my dad got admitted into the hospital and he was in the emergency ward.
My blood rushed into my head and I seemed to have blur vision.
The idea of losing him came up and haunted me.
I called and called yet nobody picked up; until I saw my buddy who was there in the hospital texted and said "SORRY".
I called her right away and asked "What do you mean by saying sorry?" She replied "I am so sorry dear. Your daddy has gone back to the father."

That was the lowest point of my life.
I was willing to lose everything else I've got but not my dad.
My whole body was frozen; I felt cold instantly.
I was in frankfurt at that very moment.
I still remember I had a good chat with daddy the week before.
He told me he was pleased with the medical result from the hospital in Kuala Lumpur.
I promised him to get him an expensive gift if he could recover from his cough and fever which he had suffered for a few days then.

I was speechless, motionless and out of breath for a few hours.
My company arranged a flight back to singapore as soon as I got the news.
I cried 12 hours non-stop from Frankfurt to Singapore.
I browsed through all the great pictures of my daddy and me on my macbook to remind me how great my dad was.

Hubby came and picked me up as soon as I reached Changi Airport.
Lidya, Hendra and Christine were there with him.
I looked at them with a smile on my face; I was quiet, didn't talk as much and the journey from airport to home felt like never ending journey.
I know they were there for me and the smile on their face told me I got their back.
It was the sweetest pure genuine relationship you could find on planet earth.

I unpacked and packed within minutes.
I was ready to go back to Jambi; the city where I spent my childhood years.
I kept imagining what was going to happen when I got there; I kept praying for strength, peace and serenity for my mom and my siblings.
I told myself I have to be strong for mommy.
The rain was pouring heavily when the aircraft landed.
I was drenched wet and cold wind running through my whole body.
It woke me up from my dream.
It's time to face the reality; where I would see my dad's body and I would have to act tough in front of everybody.

I ran to my mom and I hugged my brother as soon as I saw them.
I did not say anything but my facial expression explained the whole feeling.
I touched my dad's cheek and told him "I am here, daddy. Everything will be alright."
I didn't know where the courage came from but I told him "I can protect our family. You can leave happily now,dad. You know I love you and I am happiest to know that you are with Jesus Christ now."

I did not faint nor loss in translation, I was composed and stood still, smiling with tears to my dad.
I noticed daddy's face got brighter and a drop of tears running from his eyes.
His precious princess was back to see him and I knew he was glad.

Daddy was my hero, he was my best friend, he was my inspiration and he was my pillar of strength. There's so much stories to tell him; There are so many places I promise to bring him.
There's so much dreams and desire of my heart that I wish to let him know.
But he has gone to a better place now.

My aunt told me what daddy said few minutes before he was gone.
"God please forgive me from all my sins. I am willing to go back if this is Your time."
He mentioned that twice that morning.
Tears kept running on my cheek, Daddy has done me proud even to his very last breath.

His fighting spirit has motivated me to be who I am today.
His kind heart has taught me how to love others unconditionally.
His firm yet loving tone of speech has grown discipline in me.
His attention to details had pushed me to pursue excellence in life.
His generosity made me to be a giver, instead of a taker.
He is a man of a big heart; He always think others before himself.

I wanna Thank You Jesus for the best gift of my life.
I wanna Thank Daddy for being the greatest dad in my life.
There's no one like you and no one is able to replace you in my heart.
It has been a great 27 years being with you; it was indeed a wonderful journey we spent together.
I am the luckiest daughter in the world coz I have you.

My aunt told me, daddy rode on a bike for a good 4 hours to the bigger city just to buy me a princess gown on my very first birthday.
He will scold everyone and anyone who took care of me if he saw redness on my body due to mosquito bites.
He will get mad to anyone who allowed me to fall down and got hurt.

There are countless fond memories of you stored in my brain forever.
I could not forget how you taught me how to write and how to read when I was in primary school.
I came back with the 3rd rank in my class and I got a big hug and kiss on the cheek from you that day.
From then on, those hugs and kisses were the reasons I wanna make you proud.

I will remember of all the good times we have shared together.
I won't give up in life. I will keep on keeping on.
Coz I know as small as I am, I have a big dad who always love me and believe in me.

I love you so much dad.

May you rest in peace in paradise.

'Til we meet again one day.






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